Thursday, June 25, 2015

NoGii Product Review!

{I was sent these products for review purposes, however all opinions are my OWN and are HONEST}

Do you love all things carbs and buttery, flakey, gluten(y) goodness?! Well, this post probably isn't for you. But nonetheless, I do have to tell you about some of the most delicious treats on the market, whether you're gluten free or not! Buckle up y'all, this is an exciting one! 

NoGii is a gluten free brand created by Elisabeth Hasselback. Pretty cool, right?! This isn't just a person who created a brand because of the gluten free craze, she actually has celiac herself and has created a brand for people like herself! Where are my celiac peeps at?! 

Let's rewind to the day I got this amazing package of products to review in the mail. Can you say "HOLY WOW"?!?! I was amazed at the amount of products! So beyond generous in my opinion! 
Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU NoGii! (Four for you!)
Now if you know me, you know I love "bars". (Is that a slang term? I'm just gonna roll with it.) I love being able to grab something on the go and feeling confident that I will always have a snack in my purse. I bring them to work in the morning, in the afternoons, on car rides, and pretty much everywhere in-between. Me being hungry is not a pretty sight. Just ask my husband. ;)

I have been trying to cut out gluten as much as physically possible so these delectable little treats make it really easy! (Ignore the pizza and cheesy bread I had for dinner tonight.) This whey & quinoa protein powder in my morning smoothies is AMAZING. I honestly didn't even know they made protein powder with quinoa. Maybe i'm sheltered, maybe i'm not. Either way, I have found what I now use in each of my morning smoothies. 

My two favorite bars were the Cookies & Cream & the Peanut Butter and Caramel bar. It is truly a slice of heaven. Looking for a sweet treat that won't make you feel terrible about yourself afterwards?! You need these in your life! Not to mention there are TONS of other flavors to choose from! Those are just two of my personal favorites! :) 

I know what you're all wondering…"but how does it TASTE?!" I'm here to say i've had my fair share of gluten free foods, and this ranks at the top of the list. Seriously y'all, you won't regret these. 

Don't I have a cute helper? ;) 




Want to try some of these for yourself?! Head over to my Instagram and comment on any photo saying which one you're most interested in trying! I will pick one random person to send a goodie bag to! 
Are you a "bars" person?! What has been your favorite brand/flavor so far? Leave a comment and lets get talkin'! 


Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Your Summer Date Ideas Are Horrible

(Disclaimer: this post is all in good fun)

I've seen this post going viral lately. 25 Things Every Couple Should Do This Summer. Cute, right?! 
Well, let's take a look at this list and talk about what each of these things ACTUALLY mean…

1. Go skinny-dipping
Okay, this one isn't too bad. Get naked together and do yo thang if that's what you're into.

2. Race each other. 
How is this fun? Or cute? I just imagine being like "hey! lets race, ready, go!" and M just staring at me. 

3. Make out at the top of the ferris wheel. 
Because there are so many ferris wheels just hanging out all over the place. Go find one. And make out. How about you just make out where ever the hell you want to make out?

4. Buy a guide and go stargazing. 
Why do you need a guide for this? Go lay in your backyard and look up. 
No one ACTUALLY finds/understands constellations. 

5. Watch the sunset from the hood of your car.
Have you ever tried to legitimately sit/lay on the hood of a car for a long period of time? Maybe it's just me, but I feel like i'm going to make it cave in at any given moment in time. Add my man up there too and our next date is going to be to the auto body shop to get it fixed. 

6. Campout in your backyard.
I like this one. Do this. Unless you live in an apartment. It might not work so well. 

7. Have a candlelit outdoor dinner.
Two things come to mind with this one. 1) Flies annoy me. And eating outside with flies doesn't sound appealing to me. and 2) Good luck lighting and candle long enough for an entire meal without the wind blowing it out. 

8. Kiss as fireworks explode in the background.
And make sure you post it on Instagram July 4th or 5th like every other human being that day. #merica

9. Get cozy at a drive-in movie. 
I haven't seen a drive-in movie in AGES. Please don't make this a priority on your summer bucket list. 

10. Write your initials in the sand. 
This is just silly. And cliche. And I'm not driving 10+ hours to get to a beach to do this & you shouldn't either. 

11. Get a couples massage, on the beach. 
Again, unless you live by the beach this is just silly. Go get on in your hometown where you can then go home and take a nap in your own bed. 

12. Rent a convertible. 
Renting a car for a day just to drive around town seems like a ridiculous waste of money. I ain't about that life. 

13. Eat a ridiculously expensive dinner (and a bunch of other stuff). 
I can't even say anything bad about this. I love eating out. Cheap dinners, expensive dinners, I love them all and I do not discriminate. 

14. Dance outside in a summer rain shower. 
By the time you're done taking pictures for instagram and posting about the weather on Facebook, the rain will have probably stopped and you won't have time to dance in it. 

15. Leave a sweet sticky note on the bathroom mirror.
Girls love this stuff. Guys won't notice it for three weeks. 

16. People watch in a park and make up stories for each couple you see. 
I do this on a daily basis so adding it to my summer bucket list seems counterproductive. 

17. Have a picnic.
Again, can't say anything bad about this one. I love me a good picnic. (And by 'picnic' I mean I love going to subway and eating it in the park)

18. Take a bike ride.
How many of you grown adults actually own bikes? No really, i'd like to know…

19. Make a bet over a round of mini golf. 
….okay

20. Be like kids and go fly a kite.
When was the last time you tried to fly a kite? IT'S HARD! I mean truly, it hardly EVER works. Don't waste your time. 

21. Volunteer at an animal shelter. 
Don't do this. Your girlfriend will want to leave with 3 dogs and every cat there. 

22. Compete for who can take the most ridiculous selfie.
Why is this even on a bucket list of any kind? Don't do this. 

23. Play in the sprinklers. 
Another one that isn't so terrible. 

24. Share an ice cream cone. 
Screw you, I will not share any of kind of ice cream with you. You may get your own. 

25. Kiss in the ocean. 
Again, the whole "traveling to find an ocean" thing is really putting a damper on this list. And trying to battle waves? And seaweed? And ocean monsters? Doesn't sound terribly romantic to me. 

All jokes aside, I hope you all have the greatest summer, whatever you decide to do! What IS one thing on your summer bucket list?! I would love to hear about it! (And I promise not to make fun of it!) I hope this made someone giggle a little bit, and remember this was all in good fun. ;) 

Sunday, May 31, 2015

I'm Nervous to Blog

I've heard it said before that great blogging is about creating an emotional connection with your readers and THAT is what you strive for. Every blog post I do, I think about who it might affect and the people I might touch with it. Over the past few months I haven't blogged often, but I have shared about topics near and dear to my heart. Dealing with infertility, being on clomid, and not much in-between. Lets just say it: I've been slacking on the blog-front. Who is surprised? (No one raises their hands. I get it.)

I've been nervous. The last few blog posts of mine have created a lot of buzz. They've resulted in a lot of messages, texts, emails from people I don't know, and so much more. I love that feeling. I love knowing I am creating content people can relate to. I love knowing I am being influential with my story. I love knowing people can relate to me on a "not so traditional" forefront. With that also comes a standard I have now set for myself. My blog has always been a huge success for me. AND I AM PROUD OF MY BLOG. I am proud of what i've created. But is it enough?

I'm nervous that now that i've created, what I think is amazing content, people are expecting that type of content with each post, picture, status, etc. It takes time for me, though. It takes time for me to muster up the courage to post such heart-wrenching blog posts. I love doing it more than anything, but it honestly takes me days to even post because I analyze and dictate every word and sentence. Am I being too honest? Am I being too mean? Am I being too open? Am I sharing too much? It ALL crosses my mind.

What if what i'm posting now isn't good enough? What if my every day, working an 8-5, can't keep our house clean type blog posts aren't good enough? People don't want to read about how i'm tired everyday or about how our house still looks like we moved in last week despite being here for almost two years. (WAIT WHAT?!?!) No one wants that. I think that's why I go through spurts of not blogging. I get nervous.

I have standards for myself and for my blog and being mediocre isn't in those standards. Right now, i'm in the process of trying to "rebrand". If you're a blogger, you know what that entails. If you're not a blogger, just bare with me. I promise it will be worth it. I PINK PROMISE that it will be worth it.

I love my blog. I love my readers. I love my life and everything I share with y'all. I hope that I haven't disappointed any of my loyal readers and you understand where I am coming from for the time being. I know I say it a lot, but I love and appreciate EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. OF. YOU. These next few months are going to be exciting.
Will you continue along in our journey?

Sunday, April 19, 2015

One Year of Infertility

What?! How am I already writing a "one year" post on this subject? It feels like just yesterday we "decided to start trying" and I never thought in a MILLION years I would be a person to struggle with this. I've been thinking about how I wanted to write this post but each and every time I thought about what I would write, I just started crying. This subject is touchy. This subject is heart wrenching and life changing and brings so many mixed emotions into my life. 

I often wonder if I should be sharing these types of things on my blog. Should I be writing about the absolute, most intimate parts of my life? I get nervous. Nervous for peoples reactions, nervous about how people might perceive me, and nervous about saying too much and not being able to take any of it back. Isn't that the beautiful part of having a blog, though? I get to share and share and share and maybe someone, just one person, they might relate. They might take something away from my post or they might feel uplifted, inspired, or even as if they aren't alone. That is why I do this. That is why I post these scary, yet real posts. It is my life. It's OUR life. And I love sharing our story. 

April 2014 was the month M and I decided we would "stop preventing". Part of me hates myself for being SO naive to think it would just "happen". On the other hand, how was I to know? No one plans for these types of situations. Absolutely no one. The first few months went by and I just kept telling myself "it's okay, we just need time". After 6 months had passed I felt absolutely crushed. I felt angry and confused and hurt and every emotion in-between. 

Trying for a baby is a funny thing. I go through different episodes of crazy which is one of the worst things about all of this. Some days i'm TRULY okay with where we're at. But on my bad days, I cry. I cry constantly and I feel like a complete and utter psycho. I cry knowing things aren't going according to my plan. It's a hard thing to cope with. Every time my cycle comes I sit on the bathroom floor and cry and pray to God this is my last month I have to go through this. I pray constantly that I'm ready to be a mom again. And not to mention the clomid has made me 129485920 times more crazy and emotional than I already am. But you already knew that because of my last blog post. 

This past year has, through everything, been amazing. Every second with M has truly been a fairytale since the day I met him. We've grown together like CRAZY through this adventure called infertility. I truly don't know where I would be without him and his support. (Well, I wouldn't be trying for a baby, but that's besides the point.) M and I work. Our teamwork is phenomenal and the both of us together are unstoppable. I think you have to have a pretty strong husband to deal with you during your TTC journey. So once again, shout out to my husband for dealing with me. 

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week. I'm sharing our journey in hopes that someone else will share theirs. Infertility isn't "normal". It's not easy to deal with and it's emotionally draining. You are not alone. If you are struggling with infertility, i'm here to tell you that you are NOT alone. This is our story. This is our journey. This is our life and I couldn't love it any more if I tried.

(Picture over the past year that truly make me smile. I love you, M. Thanks for creating this life with me and giving me everything I could ask for and more.)










Sunday, April 12, 2015

Am I Really Posting This?

The life of a blogger is a weird one. You put so much of your life on the internet and hope that people don't rip apart your every move. In an effort to keep your blog going good, most people post lots of fun, uplifting, heart-happy posts. I love doing that myself, but I also like being real. I like posting about what truly is happening in my life. I feel like in doing that, the people who read my blog have a more personal connection with me and I absolutely LOVE that. 

I have a lot of things I don't blog about. In an odd sense though, I wish I did blog about them. Blogging is my therapy. I also have a lot of "unpopular opinions" about things. This post is dedicated to all those things. Sit tight, buckle up, and prepare yourself for a side of me you've never seen….

>>>I thought that at some point after moving to the middle of nowhere USA I would regret it. I can wholeheartedly say I have yet to regret it. Not even once. 

>>>I'm 95% sure I suffer from depression.

>>>"If i'm not between a 3 and a 7 on the emotion scale, i'm crying." If you know what that reference is from, we can be friends. Also, it is 100% true that if I'm not somewhere in that range, i'm crying. Too happy…crying. Too sad…crying. It's a fun trait to have. My husband especially loves it. (Poor guy)

>>>I actually don't agree with women whipping their boobies out and breastfeeding with no coverup. I understand they are feeding their child, but why not cover up?!? (I know i'll get a lot of hate for this one. Sue me.)

>>>I have chronic fatigue and it is the thing I am the most insecure about (besides my complexion). Everyone that knows me knows that I take naps more than my child and most of the time I'm in bed by 8 pm. I hate that about myself. Sometimes I literally CANNOT physically keep my eyes open. People mock me about it all the time and I know it's all in good fun, but it is something I am truly embarrassed about and absolutely hate. 

>>>The smell of ketchup after it's been sitting on a plate is literally the most disgusting smell in the entire universe. Like to the point where it makes me gag. 

>>>I think about death every. single. day. And not in a "I hate life and I think about dying" kind of way. Just every day I wonder if this is the day i'm going to get into a fatal car crash or if someone is going to invade my home and shoot me. 

>>>I think a "stay at home wife" is the biggest joke. What do you do all day when you don't have kids?!

Well folks, there it is. A few things I thought I would never post on my blog. Feel free to judge me, or feel free to comment below and let me know if you relate to any of these things! I truly appreciate every single one of you who took the time to read this post. It wasn't an easy one for me to post, but i'm happy I did. 



Wednesday, April 1, 2015

Clomid, You Dirty Little Skank...

Well, month one of clomid has came and went. It was one of the worst months i've had yet. 
The whole time i'm telling myself "this is all worth it and in the end I will be so extremely grateful"….i'm really questioning myself at this point, only because half of the month I wanted to murder someone/something/have 500 "adult beverages".

First month on clomid in a nutshell: 
-I have literally cramped every. single. day since I started my first pill. Is that normal? Probably not, but neither is 95% of my reproductive system, so there's that. And I don't just mean like "oh wahhh, I have a little cramp" it's the "*insert curse words*, grunt, cry, is this gonna kill me?!" type of cramps. Did I mention it's every single day?

-I have had the worst headaches of my entire life. Again, headaches so bad i'm convinced they are going to kill me. The headaches where I have to stop mid sentence from speaking because I'm literally about to cry and can't concentrate on another single thing because my head feels like it's going to explode. 

-The bloating is real. I thought I bloated bad before. I thought I retained water bad before. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Oh Kaylin, you're so silly. Because on Clomid, you literally look like a beached whale no matter how many times your husband tells you you don't. (Refer to my Facebook status yesterday of changing my outfit three different times. The struggle is real.)

-The emotions. Again, I thought I was emotional before? This month brought a whole new LEVEL of emotions. Im 1390921% convinced now I truly need a therapist. Anyone want to recommend one?! 

And the worst part about all of this? I get to do it all again next month! WHO IS EXCITED?!?!?! (I can tell you my husband is NOT raising his hand right now!) 

Clomid, you are a dirty little skank. Do your job and get the H out of my life. 
Who else has been on Clomid? Did you have side effects? Any of these maybe?? I'd love some insight/advice/encouragement/funny stories….anything at this point, really. 
I appreciate anyone who took the time to read this. I'm just venting at this point, as are all my blog posts. If you made it this far, you deserve a gold medal. I love you. 


Sunday, March 22, 2015

Why is it cute to be the mean girl?

I don't know if i'm the only one who notices this, so this post might be a little "scattered brained/all over the place". (And honestly i'll probably get a lot of backlash about it. But this is my blog. Not yours.)

I've noticed more and more on social media how being the "mean girl" is the "cool new thing". Being heartless and emotionless is what is getting all the attention. Belittling other people and making a scene of it is the "norm" now. It's like…if you don't post at least once a day about how much you truly don't care, people might think you DO care, and we can't have that, can we?! 
Why is it when a girl posts about how she hates everyone/everything/doesn't give a damn about anything, it is the most tweeted/"liked"/talked about status? I mean really, am I the only one noticing this?!?! When did being the mean girl become the cute thing to do? Does it give you a confidence boost? And ego boost of some sort?? 

So many times I see things on social media and I think to myself "does your mother know you post/talk/act like this?!" The language and the attitude of girls on social media is so disgusting to me these days. I can't say I never have been that girl. I KNOW there are going to be people to call me out on that. There were times in my life where I have been VERY negative on social media. However, I grew up. I matured. I realized not everything in life needs to be terrible. You CAN in fact BE HAPPY….and TALK ABOUT IT. Weird, huh?!

I know when it comes to emotional topics I can be a little far fetched. You know the Kristen Bell sloth video? Im the exact same way…if i'm not between a 3 and a 7 on the emotion scale, i'm crying. Nonetheless, I think it's OKAY to have emotions. It's OKAY to care about things. It's okay to be hurt, or to care what people say about you, or hell to even ENJOY YOUR LIFE. 

Like why is it the "thing" now to not have emotions towards anything? It's "cute" to post about how much you hate people, how much you don't give a damn, and how all you care about is pizza. When did caring about people and caring about whats going on in your life become a bad thing? When did showing your emotions become the LAST thing anyone wanted to do?! 

Being heartless isn't cute. Being the mean bully isn't cute. Belittling other people on social media isn't cute. If you put the same amount of effort as you put into hating things into something productive, can you imagine what you could accomplish?! Haha. Really though. 

This post is totally just a rant, but it's been on my mind for some time now so I just needed to vent. Quit being complete brats on the internet. I CAN NOT imagine you actually conduct your life the way you do via social media. And if you do….wow, I feel really sorry for your friends/family. Let's try being happy, eh?! Namaste.